Posts Tagged ‘Dark Night of the Soul’
In March of 2003, I was at the end of my rope and suicide was no longer something that only happened to other people. I had just ended another failed marriage. My husband had left me and later I found out he had been seeing another woman for many months before he left and everyone, except me, knew about it. My life was left in a state of shame. I had no self-esteem whatsoever, and I was confused and hurt. I was also afraid to show my face, as I thought everyone was laughing at how stupid I was not to know what they all knew. I felt I had no friends, as a true friend would have told me what was going on. I also realized I had been dependent on a toxic person. Read the rest of this entry »
Peace is only attainable from within. Many souls go through life chasing what they think is the elusive dream of peace. They are searching outside themselves for things or people that will bring calm and balance into their lives.
Stop, look inside, there is no person and no material object that will bring you the peace which you seek. Take some time to understand that if you have a discontented soul, no outside source will heal that wound. It has taken me years to understand this concept myself. Empaths have an especially hard time reconciling with the outside world – feeling deeply can be both a super power and ones Achilles heel.
Healing your soul and becoming at peace with yourself is the most important journey you will ever embark on. It means being honest with yourself and not trying to be with or agree with others, when your very own soul is screaming no. Listen, release, accept, and be. Read the rest of this entry »
From the darkest places comes the brightest of light…” When I first read this statement on a piece of community art, on display at a Yoga festival, I was astounded. I stood still, with my Yoga mat strung over my shoulder, my water bottle in hand, and a plethora of memories racing through my mind.
That moment instantly brought back my traumatic, abusive childhood, and destructive youth. I had come from some very dark places, until I ended up morbidly obese, depressed and suicidal at 30 years of age. I had to change my life and slowly I began to choose what I sensed was good for me. Read the rest of this entry »
Back in the Fall I posted a blog, titled Autumn Wishes, where I mentioned planting bulb, while wishing for a beautiful flower and praying for the fulfillment of a desire. At that time in October, it was my invitation for us to pause and notice the inexorable pull toward Winter Solstice. The days were growing incrementally shorter, ultimately culminating in the darkest day of the year.
But here we are now, and it is Spring again. Yes, it is the beautiful season of new beginnings, renewal and rebirth! Fresh buds are blooming, hibernating animals have been awakening and the earth seems to be coming to life again. Farmers and gardeners are now planting their future harvest, as temperatures slowly rise. Read the rest of this entry »
Recent events in my life have led me to deep lessons of inner strength, patience, wisdom, and of course love. A very dear friend, whom I love with all my heart, has been going through an extremely tough time. This friend’s recent outbursts and meltdowns have, however, affected me personally in a very negative way – to the extent that I now feel I can no longer be around this person.
The negative energy and thought processes my friend carries is something I am picking up psychically more so than ever. I have had to shield myself frequently from this person. It is not to say I am leading my friend in the dust, but I must admit my well-being and welfare need to come first. Read the rest of this entry »
The astral world, in all reality, is not somewhere “out there.” It is right around us all of the time. People ask, where do we go after death? I believe we stay right here where we are; our soul, or spirit (I like thinking of our spirit as being pure mind, energy, consciousness) merely transitions to a higher realm of existence in this world.
There are seven basic bands of energy, which we call “astral,” that surrounds the earth reality. The first band is earth itself, or the physical plane. This is our current world where we are living in our physical bodies, having our human experience.
The second band is the lowest of the astral world. The third band is the intermediate of the astral world, and the fourth band is the highest of the astral planes. I think most of humanity, ends up living on the third and fourth bands for a while. Read the rest of this entry »
Raising your spiritual energy is a life changer. As your talents, gifts and skills skyrocket, so will your sensitivities. Do not be in a rush, let Spirit handle your development. In your awakened state as “dragon rider” the planetary transits will rock you, and solar storms will send you to bed.
As you grow, you will find your tolerance level for nonsense plummeting. Spending time in social drinking, foolish pursuits, or inane conversations will become an anathema instead of a fun way to spend an afternoon. When you begin to read minds, then you have to learn to have superficial conversations in spite of what you pick up from others. Sometimes what you pick up will slip out in conversation and you will find yourself losing “friends” – who now find you too intense, or too honest for comfort. Read the rest of this entry »
It’s been ten weeks since I looked down the 30 meter drop to see the remains of our car, with my husband groaning inside. A neighbor and I arrived at the scene the same time as the local police. They had spotted the car whilst doing their routine rounds. I, on the other hand, had asked a neighbor to take me out to search for my husband.
My husband’s brief outing to a nearby store had become a four hour and seventeen minute nightmare. Our neighbor, James, today describes those moments as “surreal.” Words which have helped me through much less traumatic times came strongly to mind that day as I gazed down, unable to access my husband. It was as if spirit was whispering them into my thoughts once again: “and this too shall pass”. I have often used this mantra when experiencing depression or a setback in my life. I am fortunate to never have experienced the deeper pit of depression that so many souls struggle with in our times. Read the rest of this entry »