past life regression
The Spiritual Path Of The Wandering Nomad
A recent chat with a relative about my plans for the future reminded me of a first cousin who once remarked on my nomadic lifestyle, “You really don’t seem to stay in one place for more than ten minutes!” A friend once also pulled my leg about needing to buy a new Rolodex, because I was filling hers up with all my constantly changing addresses from all over the world (those were the days before contacts could be more easily stored on a smart phone).
According to Astrology, I was supposed to get settled early in life as a Cancerian, by creating a permanent home and haven, and having a family with several children. Well, this was never the case. I thought the desire to settle down might come as years passed, but it never happened.
I also never became broody. I would become motherly over a puppy, kitten or other young animal, but I never felt the desire to have children of my own.
Over many years of personal growth and spiritual exploration, I have gained a deeper understanding and greater clarity regarding the choices I have been making in this lifetime.
Astrologically, for example there is a strong Gemini influence in my natal chart which is contributing to my restlessness, as well as Leo fueling my creativity and my sense of determination. I am not am expert astrologer by any stretch of the imagination, but the way it was explained to me by a professional astrologer made perfect sense.
A past life regression session also revealed that I had conceived many children in previous incarnations and that the desire to have offspring of my own this time around was not a part of the blueprint.
I found the matter particularly challenging when I was younger. I would be dating a wonderful guy who really wanted to settle down with me and longed to have a family, but the mere thought of having my wings clipped by marriage and motherhood was always unthinkable to me. So, many good relationships ended because we really were not on the same page about settling down and having children.
My Past Life Nightmare In Hexham, England
My friends have a running joke that no event with me can ever be just a normal, everyday experience. Such was my notorious visit to Hexham, England.
I used to have a friend for many years who I knew to be kind and generous. She is a talented singer and we met while performing in a musical together. We were never close friends. Instead, we kept in contact and exchanged birthday presents, but rarely talked or saw each other in person.
At one point she was going through a difficult time. She had ended several friendships, was feeling lonely, had financial problems, and desperately hoped to meet a special guy. Then she invited me to take a special trip with her to Hexham, England. She owned an international timeshare and offered to use it for the two of us for our holiday accommodation in Hexham. Although we shared the costs, she also insisted on handling all the flight bookings, transportation and other arrangements. We had a very good relationship, so it never occurred to me that all of this might later become a major issue between us.
It was a long, 13-hour flight. When we arrived at the airport, sniffer dogs held back by airport employees ran up to us with rabid looks in their eyes. They were barking loudly; it was really terrifying. Neither one of us drank, used drugs, or had ever committed any crime. In fact, she is a devote Seventh Day Adventist. So, being targeted by security dogs was an out of the norm experience for us. The customs officials took us into a backroom and thoroughly searched our baggage. I have also never experienced this before. Of course, they found nothing. I was later informed that do not often receive American visitors in Hexham, so they were therefore instantly suspicious about us.
We then found a taxi and transferred to our timeshare accommodation. To make matters worse, our visit was during an outbreak in the area of Bovine spongiform encephalopathy (BSE), also known as ‘mad cow disease.’ Everywhere we went our shoes and the wheels of the vehicles we travelled in had to be sanitized with some awful, toxic spray. Not a fun way to start a vacation.
Eye Gazing As A Spiritual Practice
Eye gazing is a powerful, ancient practice in which two people engage in a shared meditation practice during which eye contact is maintained for an extended period of time. Eye gazing is usually done for about ten minutes at a time, although it can certainly be any duration preferred.
Eye gazing can be used to access past life information, promote healing, connect to your higher self, guides, or angels, and almost anything else you can imagine. The eyes are the windows to our soul, and our soul is the singularity that connects us to everything else: the Universe, Source, God, the Divine. Eye gazing is also a profound manifesting tool we can use to further develop our ‘spiritual muscles,’ so to speak.
Before you include eye gazing in your spiritual practice, I recommend you read my previous blog on the essentials of eye gazing. Once you are more familiar with the basics, you can also apply the following guidelines to your eye gazing practice.
To use eye gazing for a specific purpose, you must set a clear intention beforehand, and then hold that intention throughout the gaze. You hold an intention by simply keeping a gentle awareness in the back of your mind that what you are seeing during the gaze is relevant to your intention, and trusting that whatever comes forward is always relevant.
It’s important not to simultaneously hold any expectations about what you’re going to see, or to resist anything that comes up spontaneously, just because you don’t immediately see its relevance or connection to your intention. Keep an open mind and be flexible and accepting in the flow of your gazing experience.
If you’re gazing alone, sit comfortably in front of a mirror, take a few centering breaths, and then state your intention out loud. I prefer to speak aloud in my spiritual practice whenever possible, as words are energy forms and therefore add a ‘weight’ to our prayer requests, intentions, and affirmations. State your intention out loud and ask Spirit to provide insight around this intention. Use language that feels right for you.
Many Lifetimes Together As Soulmates
I have a very special friend I sometimes secretly refer to as Mr. Impossible, or Mr. Can’t Make Up His Mind, and a few other names I best keep to myself.
I started dating him when I was 27, which means I’ve known him for more than half my life. We stopped dating when I remarried at 33, but we maintained our friendship, and even dated briefly again after my divorce.
His only marriage was messy and the divorce brutal. As a result he decided to never again commit to anyone. In fact, just recently he bought myself another Harley-Davidson motorcycle because he was “feeling a little lonely.”
He is the only person, besides my husband, I would consider calling at 3:00 am to bail me out of jail. He is not only my best friend, but we are also soulmates – in the truest sense of the word. The connection we have was immediate, intense and absolute from the first moment we met.
We also share many interests and beliefs. For example, we are both fascinated with prehistory: dinosaurs, cave paintings, artifacts, and lucky to live in a state that has one of the largest dinosaur dig displays and museums in the country.
He has also acknowledged to me that he feels we were supposed to be together in this lifetime. He has also confided that if he were to ever get married again, it would be to me – but he doesn’t want that kind of commitment anymore. His decisions have affected my destiny, and as long as he knows that, I’m okay with it.
We always sense when the other is in crisis and we can talk over almost any issue or personal challenge. For example, I picked up the phone one day, without thinking, and intuitively started dialing his number, when it dawned on me that it was not the best time to call as he was still at work. So, I hung up.
Embrace Your Endless Possibilities
No matter how psychic we are (or think we are), we are not! We all have a lot more to develop and learn. The possibilities of the Universe are endless, and so are we. When I just begin to think about this, it becomes truly mind-boggling. There are a lot more to us than most of us realize. Only the end of each lifetime, when we cross over into the spirit realm, do we really comprehend the true purpose and potential of our chosen life paths. Until then the wise thing to do is make a real daily effort with our spiritual practice and personal growth.
I have been dealing with some physical health problems in recent years, but I refuse to think of myself as ill. I am constantly working on myself psychically, while I am also physically following the doctor’s advice. I just do what I have to do. A wisdom I must share is that when we are physically unwell, we should never just rely on the spiritual or metaphysical. We must also rely on our medical doctor and other professional healthcare providers. Modern medical science is a gift from God and we must use it in our lives for our highest good. Science and spirituality works hand-in-hand.
I have also been working on past life healing a lot lately using both meditation during the day, and dreamwork at night. Before I sleep, I ask my higher self or subconscious self to reveal information to me about my former lives, while I am in the dream state. It is fascinating. You know how we dream and forget the dreams when we awake? Well, those dreams seem to hang in our memories, and they come up in our memories throughout the day.
Recently, I dreamed of a busy, happy lady, walking through food markets, and all kinds of crowded markets. She looked like she was wrapped in a beautiful violet fabric. I saw a mark on her third eye. She was smiling, waving hello to everyone! Everyone was calling her “Anika.” I swear I never heard that name before, but it did seem like it might have been my name in a former life. I will continue to work on this; I guess my higher self feels it’s time for me to learn more about her.
The Origins And Journey Of The Soul
Where do souls come from? Souls are created in a place I know as the Guf, or the ‘Tree of Souls.’ In Jewish mysticism this Tree of Life is located in the Garden of Eden. When this tree blossoms, it produces new souls.
This ‘Treasury of Souls’ is said to be located in the Seventh Heaven. I have seen this place in a dream vision. I could go up to the gold and emerald gates, but could not enter. It is my understanding that all souls are created here by God.
Souls in the Guf are in different stages of evolution. There are young souls and old souls – a diversity of spirit energies waiting to incarnate, reincarnate and ascend.
I can usually distinguish the young, new souls from the wiser and more experienced, because they tend to be a bit ‘wild’ and unrestrained. Young souls are typically eager to experience as many things as possible, and sometimes rush in ‘where angels fear to tread.’ If they are exceptionally gifted, they also need to be guided properly. Many old souls reincarnate to the earth plane to help ground and guide these younger souls.
The old souls also return to provide the physical world with the many things needed for us to thrive, such as advancements in the arts, sciences and technology. Sadly, some greedy, spiritually unconscious humans abuse these gifts to the world for their personal gain. This causes much unnecessary suffering in the world.
When we decide in this life that we would like to have a child, it means our soul wants chooses to take on another soul contract. However, such a soul agreement, like any other contract, is always a two-way process. There cannot be a pregnancy unless the soul of the unborn child also chooses you as parent. In the Guf, souls can decide if they want to join a contract, or not.