soul agreement
The Man Who Pushed Me Off A Cliff
Since I was a child, I have had fragmented memories of my past lives. These flashbacks are all parts of those lives and lessons that pertain to my soul growth and karma in this lifetime.
So far, all of my past life memories have had to do with someone I have interacted with here, in my current incarnation. In other words, I have met all of the people in my past life memories in this lifetime also.
One such memory of a past life, is of a man I was married to in Ireland. We were quite young. I would say no more than 20. We were poor and lived in a little cottage, near a cliff overlooking the ocean. It was a modest, but breathtakingly beautiful home and land. I also remember that I had long, curly red hair.
Sadly, my husband in that lifetime was physically and emotionally abusive. He was always worried that men would desire me and take me away from him.
But I had never been with any man but him. I didn’t want to be with my husband, but I certainly didn’t want another man to control and own me either.
He kept me prisoner in our home and refused to let me leave. My solace was the church. My soul’s water and food was the sunlight, and the sounds and smell of the ocean. My fantasies consisted of building a boat and heading out into the vastness, toward the sunset, letting the ocean’s waves carry me away to wherever she wished me to be. Interestingly, in my present life, nature has always been my sanctuary.
The Emotional Imprints Of Past Lives
I once did a psychic reading for a lady who had a real fear of the ocean. Her fear extended to being a passenger in an aircraft flying high above the ocean, to being on the beachfront trying to relax to the sound of waves crashing along the shore-line. She had booked a session with me to see if we could discover the source of her deep-seated fear of the sea.
The answer to people’s emotional blocks often comes to me through imagery and sounds, which I receive in my mind’s eye.
In this client’s case, the answer came ‘crystal clear.’ I saw a vision of a sailing ship from the 1800s being thrown around in a terrible storm, and I knew right away, that it was a past incarnation from whence her fear of water stemmed.
She had, in fact been a sailor on that ship, which sank. She died at sea after being swept overboard during tumultuous weather conditions.
The actual cause of many relationship challenges or emotional problems can lie in trauma which went unresolved in a previous life.
Emotional wounds leave emotional imprints, which filter into our current emotional condition. Locating the root problem from past lifetimes can go far in freeing us to move forward, free from those shackles that keep us stuck.
Have you ever felt uneasy when meeting someone new, without even knowing anything about them? It’s my belief that one can be holding a memory of a shared past life, in which the soul essence of the person, with whom we are ill at ease, was someone who harmed us in some way in another lifetime.
When Will I Find My Soulmate?
The questions I get most often in psychic readings is about finding true love and meeting soulmates. Why am I still single? When will I meet the love of my life? Will I be married? To be honest, I asked myself the same kind of question for decades.
When I got divorced at the age of 28, I had no idea that I would be single until the age of 52. Yes, I had several failed relationships during those years, and even when I connected with someone who I was certain was my life partner, things always seemed to fall apart.
However, many years later, when I did meet my soulmate, it was incredible! Truth be told, I would go through it all again to end up in the relationship of my dreams, no matter how long it took.
Of course, I would have done many things differently over those two and a half decades, instead of wasting my time searching and lamenting the fear that I would always be alone.
That fear, along with a few other factors, was actually what held me hostage for years. It is the first thing that should be addressed when one is searching for your soulmate.
Many people told me over the years, that I would meet the man of my dreams when I wasn’t looking. My response to that was always, “Well, it will have to be a burglar then, because the only time I am not looking is when I am asleep!” If this is how it seems for you, then this is the first thing that needs to change. Your soulmate will find you. Period. And it will happen when you are not looking. Double period!
Always Remember That You Are Enough
You are enough. If only, as we grew up, we had heard more such words, even if there was an additional “… and yet strive for more”.
The fact is we were raised in a world where competition is prevalent; where our insecurities are often emphasized to us, or used as leverage (intentionally or otherwise); where our personal beliefs about ourselves potentially delays our soul evolution.
As partners in the Universe we say to ourselves, “Everything has a reason, we each have a soul purpose, all is in Divine Order.”
Yet, when a tragedy or life shattering moment hits, we are so intimately impacted that we have to dig deep to console ourselves and try to reframe that that tragedy has a Divine purpose, and that you have enough and are enough in that moment.
Perhaps such a life event is the loss of a family member, a loving relationship, job, pet, or a financial crisis, or any other life-changing event. Our faith in Divinity may keep us going, but it does not change the fact that we are deeply grieved by this loss.
Our ego will bring up all sorts of emotions, including anger, grief, betrayal, denial, hatred and many other emotions. You may espouse such things as, “Why them why not me” or “I feel cheated” and “How could this happen”.
In our Divine space, devoid of analytical ego, we know in our heart this experience is for our soul growth path and those closely connected with us, but that is still hard to face.
The Powerful Bond Of A First Love Connection
I think we can really feel the intensity of true love the most when we are young and experience falling in love for the first time. The feeling is so strong and all encompassing.
When love takes over everything in the world just feels so much better. The grass is greener and everything is perfect and good, in a way that words simply cannot express. If you fall madly in love with someone, and you are really lucky and get to have and hold that love, it is even more profound and deep-seated.
I was fortunate to experience this once. It happened while I was working as a bagger at a local grocery store. I stood up, after stocking the paper bags, and suddenly locked eyes with a wonderful soul. He obviously felt the same way, because he returned with his phone number that he had written on a small piece of paper for me.
We had a wonderful romantic relationship for nearly four years. He ended up finishing medical school several states South from where we initially met. Despite my fear of flying, I did fly down to see him once. I also took my Tarot cards and did a few readings for him. The ‘Death’ card kept popping up, but I kept reassuring him that it usually means ‘transition’, and not to worry, no one is going to die.
He came home for a family visit a few months later. I was sitting at his parents’ pool in the back yard, where he grew up. I suddenly sensed something terrible. I had this overwhelming and ominous premonition that someone in his family was going to die. Being so connected to him, I felt that it wouldn’t be him, but his brother. I felt very strongly about this. Seeing him playing his guitar, so alive and happy, I could not begin to imagine losing him.
Understanding How Men Fall In Love: Mind, Body & Soul
What makes a man fall in love head-over-heels? When does a guy go from casual interest, to “I want you in my life.” Maybe it’s timing. Maybe he’s been waiting for someone like you. Or maybe you’re way ahead of him.
But from what I’ve seen in thousands of psychic readings over the years, what really flips that switch is chemistry and connection. The way you look into his eyes. The way you listen to him like he’s the only person in the room. How you make him feel, and that sense that, in his arms, you belong.
It is not true that most men are obsessed with looks only. While an attractive appearance certainly helps to get things off the ground initially, this is not what men stick around for in the long term.
Some men are drawn to personality. Some to your kindness and tolerance towards others. Some are drawn to the way you think. Some to the scent of you. Some to that feeling that life without you would be boring. Sound familiar? Yes, the truth is, men and women want a lot of the same things: feeling important, wanted, accepted, appreciated.
A man will bond with you when he feels he can make you happy. When he knows you accept him fully. When he feels seen. Even the parts he hides! Because when he knows that, he gives himself to you: heart, mind, and soul.
There’s another myth that men like sassy women who “play hard to get,” as so often portrayed in Hollywood romcoms. That’s not it at all. What he does like is a woman who is secure in herself, who laughs easily, who keeps her own life going, who has her stuff together (not perfect, just real). And yes, attractive to him. But more than looks…she has backbone, presence, a rhythm of life.
Are You Desperately Seeking Your Soulmate?
As a psychic reader, I often deal with questions about love and relationships. Many clients ask about meeting their soulmate, twin flame, or special life partner.
A dear client once told me how desperate she was to find her soulmate. She said she wouldn’t be happy until she met him, as she believed he would complete her.
But Spirit did not respond with a simplistic prediction or quick fix. The message was clear and direct: she would never find a man to complete her. Instead, she would have to find happiness and fulfillment from within. Only after she accomplished this would she be able to find lasting happiness in a relationship.
I gave her some things she could do to help her and I was later thrilled to get an email from her telling me how thankful she was. She was looking to all the wrong things and people to give her the happiness she so desired.
She then asked me the right question and I was so happy she remembered! How could she connect with her true beloved?
I remote viewed and explained where I saw him and felt it was someone from her past and how she could find him by simply not looking, and we discussed many different things about this person.
She never realized it, until I finally mentioned to her, that this was her best friend that she had been in touch with for many years. They had had their ups and downs, but as I explained, even the best of marriages are like roller-coaster rides. It is not the easy connections that we gain the greatest amount of soul growth from. Instead, the relationships that aren’t easy are the ones that you become wiser from and gain the most wisdom from.