The What-ifs That Go Bump In The Night

When I grow up, I want to be a lightworker! Okay, so I’ve grown up and I’ve been a psychic and healer for many years. The question now is, how do I take back, or erase from my mind’s eye all that I’ve seen? ‘Wounded healer, heal thyself’ is a very old truth, which still holds merit after many years of being bandied about.

Perhaps today it is more true than ever. In today’s world we are dealing with much more fear and what-ifs than ever before in our lifetime. Someone, or something, somewhere – the news media for one – is always preying on our fears. Panic and perpetual fear is the name of the game for many in our world these days.

Psychics, astrologers, mediums, diviners, and energy healers, among other, are known by the universal term ‘lightworkers.’ This is ironic, considering we often have to delve into the darkest fears of most people head-first, in order to help our fellow humans come to some form of clarity, healing or conclusion.

And what happens when the lightworker’s battery begins to fade from overuse and not enough recharging? Can helping other people face their fears make our own fears and limiting beliefs become larger by proxy, thus causing our own light to dim?

Lightworkers are born healers and teachers. At our core we want to help everyone. We know that inner peace comes from within. However, some of our clients are open to guidance, while others are not. Maybe I only speak for myself as a healer, but those who refuse guidance often haunt me far longer than those who embrace it.  They are the ones who keep me up at night. They are the ones who make me doubt and question what I know in my heart to be true, based on my ability to listen to a Higher Power and relay messages spirit wants to share.

Face your fears, I tell myself. Even as a wounded healer, I must continue to face my self-doubt and remember to look upon the bright side: the countless souls whose lives I have been blessed to change and help make into something brighter, better and more fulfilling.

Nothing in life is to be feared, it is only to be understood. Now is the time to understand more, so that we may fear less ~ Marie Curie

I shall not forget those whom have come to me in the throes of deep addiction, be it substances, or behavior, or thought-patterns, and have found their way back to the light. I honor those who wanted release from spiritual and mental pain and suffering, torment and anguish, and have achieved it. If you face fear, which does tend to masquerade in many different forms, and laugh at fear in the face, then lightness of heart can come in through laughter and new joy.

When I grow up, I just want to be…me! And I cannot truly be me without both the good and the bad, the fear and the love, the believers and the skeptics. And so I thank you.

A few words of advise for the wise: face the pain, face the doubt, face the whatifs that has lately been going ‘bump in the night’ of your subconscious. Maybe, just maybe, by facing your fears you become both the shadow and the Light, and find the balance and healing that will come with it. And if you need help, it is okay to ask for it, and accept it when you receive it.