When My Guides Would No Longer Guide Me

Like most people, I have faced my own share of difficulties and life challenges. In fact, there was a very challenging period in my life that lasted about 15 years.

I remember in those days asking my guides for support and guidance. I was in desperate need of finding a path out of the chaos caused by a strange series of events in my life. I was praying, humbly requesting divine intervention.

Nothing. Silence.

In the past I had always received feedback from my guides. I have even had magical messages and miraculous signs proving without a shadow of doubt that God and my spirit guides exist.

One time, I was dealing with a very toxic employee, who was spreading nasty rumors about me and my business. I was at my wits end with stress and frustration. On my way back home from my office, a negligent driver unintentionally pulled their car right in front of me on the freeway, almost forcing me off the road! Fortunately, I swerved just in time. After I recovered from my initial shock, I noticed the license plate frame said: Happiness Is Loving Satya.

That same day, my electronic garage door was not working for some reason, so I had to enter the house through the front door, which I never did. I found a tree service business card left on the porch. The tree service owner was once again my namesake. An unusual name for man.

I’ve had hundreds such magical, confirming moments. I have even been told I would receive tangible gifts from my guide, and I did receive those gifts.

But now, during the most difficult, confusing, terrifying time in my life, there was nothing. Nothing. Silence. Why aren’t you responding, I asked. Are you still here with me? Have you abandoned me? Why is this happening?

Start by doing what’s necessary; then do what’s possible; and suddenly you are doing the impossible ~ Francis of Assisi

Nothing. Silence.

Then one day, in prayer, again I was asking, where are you? Please help me. Then suddenly I heard my guide!

She said, “You wanted it this way.”

I was stunned and confused. Why would I not want your help with something this awful, that has gone on this long?

“It has always been so easy for you,” she replied. “Lifetime after lifetime. To see us, and hear us, and sense us. This time you chose to go it alone, so you can find the answers on your own. This is related to your life calling and soul purpose. You wish to find your own way, and so you must. We are not intervening.”

Those words ripped through my heart. I’m lost and alone. I’ve never felt this alone in my life. She was right though. I had always received messages, and support, and answers from spirit. But knowing that my higher self had chosen go through this alone, was devastating.

Every adversity, every failure, every heartache carries with it the seed of an equal or greater benefit ~ Napoleon Hill

Meanwhile, my life was falling apart and I was about to lose everything.

I called a friend, whose time zone was three hours ahead of mine, waking her up at midnight. I was crying, telling her how afraid I was that I would soon be homeless. It was during the recession of 2008 and I could not find a job. Rent and many bills were due. My friend said, let’s go on the internet and find you something… anything for you to do for work.

I had been on every employment site there was, but I needed to try again. So, I turned on my computer. Oddly, there was an open tab on my screen. Strange, I thought. I even told my friend how bizarre it was. She asked, what does it say?

I felt the hair on my arms stand up. It was the employment page for a psychic reading site. I had never worked online before, but my friend encouraged me to fill out an application immediately. I did, and I was hired. A few months later I left that job and started working on Psychic Access soon after, where I have been now for almost 7 years now. And is the greatest job I have ever had.

Looking back there were so many times I ignored the signs and synchronicities. But I finally found my way back to my true self. And now my guides were back. And so was the magic in my life.