Many years ago I had the blessed experience to work with a Native American shaman. I had to travel deep into a canyon in Arizona. This particular canyon cannot be accessed without a tribal member as escort. I was picked up in a jeep and whisked off to an area surrounded with red rock cradled in Aspen trees.
The canyon cliffs shot up hundreds of feet into the sky, eagles flew overhead, trees whispered the message of the wind, and streams of clear water bubbled over the river rock.
Amidst the beauty of this place there was also great poverty. Children stood in the streams selling beads and various artifacts made from the surrounding nature. Packs of wild dogs ran wild, seeking food. I had one thing on my mind: enlightenment. Yet, I was disturbed by what I saw around me.
The spiritual journey is the unlearning of fear and the acceptance of love ~ Marianne Williamson
The shaman greeted me and led me to a red rock cave. He instructed me to sit in silence, which I did. But I was anything but silent. My mind was screaming, “What of this life!” Children living in poverty and wild, unfed dogs seemed unfathomable to me. “What is enlightenment anyway,” I wondered to myself.
The shaman began building a fire and whistled a tune without looking at me. Then he looked right through me. “What is it that you seek?” he asked.
“Enlightenment,” I answered.
The smile left his face and he stared back at me hard and said, “What you seek cannot be found here.”
I stared back and wondered if this was a game, or a trick question.
“Do you understand?” he asked.
In obvious discomfort, I replied, “No, not really, I thought I was coming to be enlightened.”
He laughed and shook his head and returned to building the fire.
“Where does enlightenment happen?” he stopped and asked. He stared through my eyes into my soul. It felt as if I was surrounded with an inexplicable strong energy.
Then I understood. Enlightenment cannot be found here. It is found within.
“Ah, now you see. Without words, you understand. Without eyes, you see. Without hearing you listened. What you seek cannot be found. It already exists within you and will be when you go beyond the senses,” he said.
To see the universal and all pervading Spirit of Truth face to face, one must be able to love the meanest of all creation as oneself ~ Mahatma Gandhi
He jabbed the fire with a large walking stick and tiny sparks flew into the atmosphere.
I was instructed to remain seated and to not move. I could have been anywhere else in this moment, but I wanted to be here. I wanted enlightenment. I felt foolish for not understanding. And I remained seated. The fire was hot, smoke billowed and I grew uncomfortable. I wanted to run. But I sat.
Then I heard the shaman say, “Your mind is not your own. You must reclaim your mind. Control it and master it. Then, you will die to yourself.”
What? Die to myself! What does that even mean?
I was so uncomfortable, unsure, scared and weary. I didn’t understand what I had gotten myself into. I feared for my safety and I feared the shaman, wondering if he would hurt me. I wanted to go home and feel safe, but I knew somewhere within myself that, although I could escape, I did not want to. So, I sat and I sweated. It was hot and smoky and very uncomfortable.
I began to cry and didn’t know why. I felt sadness for so much. For the animals, for humanity, for our pain and for things I couldn’t understand. I cried until I couldn’t cry anymore. And then, it happened. The indescribable experience that goes beyond the mind, because the mind had been exhausted. The ego had been shut down.
We are the all. There is no I or me. There is only the All. Beyond this, I do not know how to explain it, but I do know that if we seek, we will find that seeking has an end result of finding. Or not finding. The goal is not to seek. The goal is to be. And even that is ‘something.’ We are the experience, and the one experiencing it. It was all too much and not enough at the same time. But I knew this; we know nothing.
When we were finished, the shaman sat with me in silence. My heart needed to release more pain, and I did. The shaman lovingly sat next to me and pulled me close as I sobbed.
The human soul is on its journey from the law to love, from discipline to liberation, from the moral plane to the spiritual ~ Rabindranath Tagore
Love. That’s all that matters. How we love matters. Even in the toughest of times, we must remember that love is the law. It is so simple, and yet we complicate it. The shaman knew that I was beginning to understand. He gently rocked me and said, “Love is everywhere.”
I could hear it. It was everywhere; in the breeze that whispered through the leaves of the trees, the cracking fire, the babbling brook and the energy in nature.
Then came the lesson. I was instructed to study the letters in the word love. Shapes have meaning. The letters are symbols that make up a word, and they too hold energy.
In the word ‘love,’ the Right angle letter L is a builder’s tool, as it holds a 90 degree angle within it. Or small l, also looks like the I, or eye. The O is a circle for the All – wholeness, oneness, nothing is separate. The V is a vessel for filling the sacred chalice with Divine Love. And the e is the Divine spin, energy and then lastly, capital E.
Although this world is made of opposites there is always a third element. The third makes up the Sacred Trinity and triangle. Capital E is I, or the spine or staff, with three horizontal lines. Like the staff in the Biblical story of Moses, or that of Kundalini energy up the spine.
Triangles have energy and power associated with them and can be powerful depending on where their base is placed. Take the pyramids in Egypt for example – smack in the center of the world. The word love is a powerful life force that builds and creates more life.
Make the symbolism what you wish and look at what is. For example, in the word is we find the staff again, or spine, and the S or sine wave that wraps itself around the staff just as Kundalini energy wraps itself around our spine. It is the Divine within that is what we perceive as ‘us.’ What you choose, you become. But it’s not what you are. You are a Divine being having a physical experience through your own seeing.
The spiritual meaning of love is measured by what it can do. Love is meant to heal. Love is meant to renew. Love is meant to bring us closer to God ~ Marcus Aurelius
Take responsibility for your actions and choices. Recognize when you choose something you also create its opposite. If you choose good you are simply recognizing something else as bad. That’s how we understand something to be good. By its opposite. For example, if you feel threatened by your lover and you lash out with horribly hurtful words, the result will depend on the emotional constitution of your lover and their past experiences. Usually, they become angry, resentful and hurt. Thus more chaos is created. The relationship can be ruined by one experience, or several of these outbursts.
How do we know it’s not good? It hurts and our lover wants to leave or rejects us. What matters are your actions. If you have the desire to look at yourself, you can change it. If you really look, you will see yourself. You are hurt, resentful and angry and just created more of the same. See? It’s all inside. Just like seeking enlightenment begins within, it’s never outside of us. It’s right there tucked away just needing a little push to be revealed.
But you don’t need to falsely swing to the other side and create a false, syrupy sweet reconciliation. Simply look and it begins to drop away. Why? Because you will see, and once you see you understand that it is you projecting reality blindly. Through this recognition, this looking without judgment comes healing.
So, before we blame others, we must first look within. If you are feeling attacked, you will find yourself reflected. We are the attackers and attacked. Yes, I know it’s hard to accept when you firmly believe that others are attacking you. Once you find it’s an old experience that keeps repeating itself, you can choose to no longer feed it. Listen to what you say; your ‘isms’ and self-talk. Do you often say, “Story of my life…”? Yep, there it is! The story of your life written and edited by you. Take steps to make necessary changes within, choose differently, and watch the chaos drop away. You may lose some friends, but you will feel lighter. Love them for they helped you get where you are. They are you; your reflection.
Just like the story of Echo and Narcissus. Narcissus fell in love with himself. When he was alone and banished into the forest, Echo followed him. Narcissus would ask, “Who’s there?” Echo would reply, “Who’s there?” Get it? It’s your own self. Everywhere Narcissus went, there was Echo. Think deeply on this.
Once we go beyond the illusion of the physical world and look more deeply, we find ourselves, but truly, no self. Just oneness.
At the end of the day, what matters is how you loved. Go past ego, hate, jealousy, competition. Just love. Let it break you; let it cut you deeply, so that you see yourself in the echo of love. Choose to love as often as possible and you will be amazed at the life you begin to live, as it will begin to fill with more love.
| PsychicAccess.com.Jacklyn is able to read the heart and energy patterns of others, uncovering the true intentions that create their realities. She lives in Northern California, where she’s counseled over 3000 clients, and has worked with police on missing person and cold cases. She’s read for clients around the world, consistently astonishing them with her abilities. An expert in Tarot, Astrology and Dream Interpretation, for over thirty-five years, she’s utilized these tools to see, hear and feel messages on just about every subject. Jacklyn is a firm believer that we are the creators of our own lives and knows that Miracles are built on faith. As long as you believe, anything is possible! If you’d like a reading with this Intuitive Wonder, you can reach Jacklyn at |
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