I was diagnosed with bipolar II disorder in 2000. When I received the diagnosis, it was a relief, because I’ve been misdiagnosed for about 20 years. You see the doctors thought that I had major depression and so they treated me with anti-depressants. However, if the person that you are treating has bipolar depression, then anti-depressants will often make the depression worse!
Being diagnosed with Bipolar II changed my life. I was able to get on the proper medication and see doctors who knew the illness well. The purpose of this blog entry is to tell you how being properly diagnosed changed my life spiritually.
There are two types of Bipolar disorder. There is Bipolar I where one experiences massive mood swings, going high, high, high and then low, low, low.
Bipolar can make you unstable, but you are still able. Never give up, never give in, you will find your peace again ~ G.E Laine
With Bipolar II the highs are just above the normal state. You may get speedy thoughts, feel like you can do anything, spend too much money, take irresponsible risks, or any other of a number of manic behaviors. The main thing about Bipolar II is that the lows are very low and the depressions are very severe.
The essence of all forms of Bipolar disorder is that you can’t have highs without the lows
What have I learned through this whole process? How have I been spiritually affected? I am a metaphysician, a psychic, an intuitive – a mystic if you will. Having Bipolar teaches me to stay in the now. It teaches me to appreciate every moment that I have when I feel good.
I am on medication and so the mood swings are far less than if I was without medication. Yet, every once in a while my medication needs to be adjusted and I will sometimes fall into a depression. I have to be honest with you: the moods where I am above normal are wonderful. I feel like I can do anything! I feel free. Yes, the overspending does bother me and can cause many problems.
I have to also admit something about the severe depressions. I become suicidal at times. I know I am in a deep depression, a bipolar depression when I feel suicidal. Normally I am anything but suicidal. I love my life and I am grateful for every moment that I have of it. Yes, Bipolar Disorder teaches me to live in the moment- including when I am severely depressed.
Bipolar disorder can be a great teacher. It’s a challenge, but it can set you up to be able to do almost anything else in your life ~ Carrie Fisher
I have to ask myself what the depression is trying to teach me. Have I given of myself so much that I am emotionally depleted? Is it just a biochemical abnormality? Is it a problem that can be solved through a medication adjustment? I am fortunate, I am very sensitive to my medication, so any adjustments will tend to make me feel better.
Unfortunately, one of the drugs that I am on tends to make being a psychic a little bit more difficult and more challenging. I have learned how to get around the problem. But still, at times, it concerns me. Would I be better off without the medication?
I have Bipolar friends who are not using any medication. Their lives seem very chaotic, but their feelings also run very deep. They experience life’s ups and downs much more intensely and vividly.
Spiritually, I’ve learned compromise. I have learned that we often do not get the perfect solution. I have learned that we are often left to fill in the blanks. It is like we have a manual of life with some pages left out. I have learned I can be a psychic, an intuitive, a metaphysician, a mystic without having to have bipolar symptoms.
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