In fact, my relationship with the Tarot was an unexpected 12-step program, so to speak!
A five-year romantic relationship, that had been fueled with much passion, but was unstable from the start, had come to an end. I found that I no longer could run from my true authentic self.
I came face-to-face with ‘The Tower’. Yes, a violent revolution and overthrow of false consciousness was taking place in my life. The destruction of the old order was happening on a grand scale!
I now know that this transformation was triggered by repressed emotions, frustration, and a lack of opportunity to reflect. At the time the sudden change of ideas, values and beliefs was extremely painful as mental transition. The sudden conversion was not on my ‘to do list’, but it would bring enlightenment that allowed for me to rebuild a foundation that freed me from false ego, and fill in the blanks!
The true Tarot is symbolism; it speaks no other language and offers no other signs – Arthur E Waite
My newfound relationship with the Tarot cards, and the state of my mental and emotional self, was unlike anything I had experienced before. It was short of crazy.
The Aquarian tarot deck was given to me, and I really did not know what need I had for such a thing. I initially had no interest in learning the meanings of 78 cards. I was unaware of the intensity of the upheaval that was taking place in my life.
Now and then I would pick up the deck and look through all the cards. Next I found myself sketching what I saw, when looking at a certain card. It was amazing that I was finding myself connected to symbols and colors, and creating through my drawings heartfelt and even painful expressions of what I was sorting out at that time.
I then found myself reading for as much as five hours a day in the library, seeking what I did not know at that time, and all along knowing that I was really finding what I needed. I regarded this process as similar to any 12-step program. It was not perfect, but so what, I was on my way.
I had another challenge to contend with. I finally overcome my fear and shame regarding my psychokinetic ability. Psychokinesis is often an unconscious and involuntary ability to cause objects to move, or affecting property. I contacted the UCLA Parapsychology Department for help. They are known for their research into Psychokinetics, and I proceeded to take part in various studies. It was a liberating experience.
At that time I also realized that the Tarot cards were not for me to interpret as defined in books, but rather to see, to look beyond with patience, and then to draw what I felt, experienced, and heard in the voice of silence. To this day I have hundreds of my Tarot interpretation drawings from that time.
The Tarot is a symbolic record of human experience. I encourage others, who desire to study the Tarot, to push aside the books and connect with their true authentic self. Open the door into the hidden regions of your soul, and know that your personal powers are a direct result of all the struggles expressed in the cards.
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